The Final Push

Tomorrow is officially my last day as a sophomore. Wow. Weird feeling. I don't know if you read in my first blog about the overwhelming feelings that are experienced during this last week of finals, but I decided right now as I sit in my apartment alone and have what some would call "emo" music playing, that I am really sad. I thought that I would be REALLY excited that summer is here, but to tell you the truth; I am really sad. I realized how many of my friends are graduating and that makes my heart so sad; most of them are not from around here and that makes it even worse. Another thing that I hate is that I have started to make a lot of really good friends in this "last stretch" of school and now that we are finally getting close, they have to leave. What the heck?? Is anyone else starting to feel this way??? Am I all alone on this?? Maybe it's because i'm a girl...which means i'm emotional haha

Realizing death is closer than I thought it could be

So I was driving home tonight around 10:45 and THE scariest thing ever happened! I was in the lane next to the fast lane, right near box springs (which is an exit in my hometown)...and the stupid car in front of me decided to swirve totally out of nowhere without giving any signal or sign in advance...at the time I was thinking, "what was that all about?"
Then I saw that there was a fatty washing machine in the middle of the lane and realized if I hit that large mass, I was going to flip my little civic and roll into the ditch! There was a car on either side of me; so I looked at the guy on the left with a second to decide before something terrible happened and I think he saw the look of sheer fear and panic go across my face becasue he immediately slowed WAYYYY down so that I could swirve; BARELY missing that washer!

Man-oh-man. That was scary. Don't worry, I called the cops to report the missing washer in case they wanted to come and pick it up to save other people from possibly hitting it causing them to run home and blog about it too. If I was that scared, I can only imagine what the car in front of me was thinking. All I know is that as all this was happening, I remembered that Mical had already said goodnight, Hillary knew that I went home for the night so she wouldn't be expecting me back at school, and my mom was already in bed. That meant that no one would have known I died until the morning when my mom woke up and noticed me missing. Okay, so this is a farely dramatic blog: so what? I was scared and this is the only way I can truly make you feel as though you were right there with me :)

Late Night Life

Okkk so the time is 4:31am and I am STILL awake. What is that? I am a person that normally does not function well on less than 6 hours of sleep at night. What am I talking about? That's a lie. I do not function well on less than 8 hours of sleep a night and if I can sleep for more than that I am always more than willing to jump at that chance. Ask my best friend Mical. Or should I say my mom. She has to drag me out of bed every morning. I really don't know what I would do without that girl. [I love you Cal].

Anyways, I am up and it is already a new day and the only reason that I am still up at this late hour is because Caitlin and I have to study for a final that will probably still kick our butt tomorrow. I admit, we have been distracted by quite stimulating AIM conversations, but we have still been studying to say the least.

So why the blog if I have so much to do? Hmmmmm....good question. I don't even know if people actually read these things. There is a little box that says "PROFILE VIEWS" and the number is well into the 20's, which would seem to be a good thing considering that I just made this thing last night, but is that number even acurrate? I have NO idea. I click the refresh button and the number increases. So the amount of times that I look at my own page must be included in this number.

Important Things I learned today

1. Sometimes getting lost in a two hour conversation about life is better than taking that time to study...you'll remember your conversations with your friends more than you will remember some "facts" you learned for some final, for some class you took for some year in college.
2. People can surprise you. Testimonies are fascinating to me. That old saying "never judge a book by its cover" rang true today...
3. Although I have recently been on a little thing that texting, AIM, and other forms of communication, besides in person, are impersonal; I have found that AIM can be a sufficient way to get to know someone. Yes, I do think that one still needs to have actual, face-to-face interaction with people, but the internet is still a sufficient means for these purposes.
4. Lastly, going to Denny's at 3 in the morning is so much better than the time that most "normal" people would go and for the following reasons: there is hardly anyone there to interrupt the conversation, food is served faster which means that it is hotter, your drink is constantly being refilled before you get a chance to finish the first cup because you have the waiter's full attention since no one else is around, you leave the restaurant expecting an empty parking lot, only to find that there is quite a long line of people ready to set up their flea market stands so in an attempt to bypass this 4-in-the-morning traffic, you are only slowed down by the extremely slow driver that has no idea his parking lights are on instead of his headlights, but most of all, because some of the best memories are made after midnight. :)

The end approaching

As I approach the end of my second year in college, I find myself full of a variety of different emotions: anxious, happy, stressed, sad and many other words that are not coming to mind due to the fact that my brain is complete mush in this season of finals.

Even though I am only going to be a junior, I feel as though I am at a point in my life where I have a lot of important decisions to make that will dictate my future. It's a scary thought: my future. I recently turned 20 and in turning another year older, I feel a sense of doubt in "life after college." Have I chosen the right major, am I taking the right classes to graduate on time, am I really trusting in the Lord and being faithful in making all my decisions glorifying to Him? When I sit here in my living room by myself, I feel as though all these questions are consuming my mind. I hate the feeling of an uneasy mind. It's the type of thing that makes me toss and turn while laying (laying, lying; who knows? I don't think I listened that year in English) in bed, unable to fall asleep because I have so many thoughts running through my mind.

Well anyway, I am unsure how this whole "blog" thing works. My inspiration to write was because of Courtney Weatherly and her amazing blogspot. Pretty much she is one of the coolest girls on campus and guess what boys? she is SINGLE!!! hollaaaaa:) okk I am going back to my "study" mode where I atttempt to do homework and study for finals, but constantly get sucked into some AIM conversation.


xoxo<3 Mo